Mistakes Are For Making

Palimpsest. It has to be one of the most glorious words in the English language- at least to me. It is all due to my discovery of and admiration for a single man. Well, two, if you count the person that ‘introduced’ me to the aforementioned single man. That man is Carlo Scarpa.


Early in my architecture education, and even now in some cases, one of the scariest things to encounter is blank media. A single sheet of cold press watercolor paper. A torn piece of 18# trace paper. Sturdy textural canvas.

As long as I did not ‘do’ anything to produce an architectural solution to a given design problem, I could play it safe by never committing to anything. The fear of never finding the right solution gripped me a spiral of indecision after indecision. It seemed that I was caught in a vicious circle of wanting to craft beautiful base buildings and interior spaces, without having to ruin the selected media with graphite smears, charcoal, and pesky erasure crumbs. Bye-bye, perfection. Or so I thought.


Enter, Signore Scarpa
. Museo di Castelvecchio. Fondazione Querini Stampalia. Olivetti Showroom. Brion Cemetery.




From the first time I saw the layered, colorfully animated and incomplete sketches of this Italian master builder, I was completely and deliriously in love. Progressions of lines revealed as deep thoughts, cultivated over and over on canary tracing paper or a crisp white sheet-each thought being not necessarily a mistake, but a mode of exploration- tell a story of his design process. Sometimes there are sweeping strokes, or sometimes there are little vignettes that invite the viewer into Scarpa’s deeply creative mind.


His imperfect perfect drawings stir me with inspiration. With each new design opportunity, being able to see every one of my mistakes compressed on a single sheet is a chance for me to quickly see new (or what would have been otherwise undiscovered) possibilities.

study for a wood sculpture

study for a wood sculpture

massing sketch on a proposed site

massing sketch on a proposed site





Mistakes, I learned, are for making. Making drawings. Making buildings. Perhaps though, most of all, making is for mistakes.

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THUMBS UP ON THUMBS UP- EMBRACING (OR NOT) OUR AFFINITIES
The black sand of Iceland, one of my favorite places on Earth

The black sand of Iceland, one of my favorite places on Earth

Years ago, while walking through MOMA with Brian, a dear friend, my heart skipped a beat. As we approached one of the galleries, there before my very eyes was it. Bird in Space.

Observing my rapturous delight at seeing the work of Constantin Brancusi in person, Brian asked me a simple question. It turned out that this would be one of the most profound and pivotal points in my life as a design and visual creative.

“Sheena, why do you like this sculpture?”

My typical fallback cerebral response to this question was nowhere to be found. In a panic, I started to come up with a litany of ‘excuses’- um, the lines are nice, it is simplistic, the form is…

With a small laugh, Brian stopped me. “You don’t have to explain it to me,” he said. “And you certainly shouldn’t come up with reasons only because they sound good to someone else. You like what you like. And that is it.”

It was then, that I stopped my burgeoning need to show erudition. Right there in NYC at a gallery in a museum, it ended. By humbly addressing one of my flaws, with the help of that dear friend, I began to understand how to embrace, and ultimately explain, when necessary, the why of things that inspire, delight, and move me.

Lines are my steady fallback for starting a project- whether it is a work of art, a photograph, or an architectural project.

My music tastes range from the jangly. dreamlike atmospheric quality of shoegaze, to the ‘oontz-oontz’ of EDM. From the sweeping harmonic complexities of bossa nova- traditional and modern- to the fun upbeat pleasure that disco and nu-disco brings.

The reverie that I experience when looking at a particular type of photography sends my mind soaring. (I can say without reservation or excuse that I prefer black & white, grainy film images over any other image).

The frigidly beautiful black sand beaches and majestic mountains & fjords that frame the linear architecture and landscape of Scandinavia fascinate me endlessly.

My certitude in embracing this recognition of the aforementioned did not truly become cemented as a part of my life until I was at the Dayton Art institute looking at a Wassily Kandisky exhibition after the MOMA revelation. While standing waiting to look at one of the paintings, I noticed a father holding a baby. Upon being shown the painting, the baby began to giggle and reach out toward the statically animated squiggly lines and beautiful colors. That baby could not explain the why of his joy. He just embraced it happily, fully, and unabashedly. Just as I do, after 20 plus years.

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Sheer beauty through instructive corrosion
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Corrosion. Concrete. Combustion. And the indelible lessons of rust.

Carl is a very tall, scruffy-looking and kind dude that I have had the pleasure of knowing for about 10 years. We talk about a range of topics from neurology to the prettiness of asbestos, and our mutual love of vintage construction drawings.

Then there is Sam, a young man whose father reminded me that there are subtle differences in the textures and tones of Pennsylvania Bluestone, and to be aware of them

Finally, there is Patrick- a wiry Irishman who is a walking font of knowledge and can fit into places that my claustrophobic rear will not go.

Carl is my plumber. When I spoke to him last- he was at my home to replace some exterior hose bibs- he gave me a gentle reminder about galvanic action. It was the reason he had to replace my spigots. But in doing so, he also reminded me that there is a lovely textural quality to corrosion.

Sam is my mason. Without his design advice, certain spaces on the exterior of my house would not be as appealing. Besides having a seriously broad knowledge stone, he understands that craftsmanship in masonry is an art.

Patrick is my chimney sweep, who keeps me smiling with his witticisms, his distinct yet delicate dulcet Irish lilt, but mostly with his enthusiasm for the gaseous chemical and salient reactions of ‘internal’ residential combustion and a controlled raging fire.

It long been a belief of mine that learning a trade is extremely valuable. Apprenticing under people that care not only about the technical, but the aesthetic inherent in the craft of the trades, is extremely valuable with these three men.

And I would be remiss if I did not mention how fortunate I am to have Carl, Sam, and Patrick as my teachers.

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Inquisition of Inanimate Objects

Inspired by Louis Kahn’s query of brick, I use inquisition for this post with definite purpose and singular intent.



Must architecture always start with a line? No, not at all. For me, however, it usually does. This decision is not at the expense of other design commencement methods. Quite the opposite, as line, and its intense examination and rigorous inquiry, begets (necessary) paths of exploration.



By the tactile interrogation of the aforementioned line, I find that I discover the salient mysteries which are the result from the friction of charcoal or graphite as it is drawn on or dragged across a sheet of paper has left an indelible effect on the way I view the beginning of an architecture or design project.



Does line want to be a part of a section? Or, is it more appropriate for line to be a part of a floor plan as the thickness of a wall or the edge of a floor or as the separation of crafted space?

Repeating the process by sedulously drawing line over and again allows answers to become clearer, even though this inanimate object cannot ‘speak’ with a traditional audible voice.



This process is not arbitrary, though it might be argued that it is. But I do not think it is. Once ‘pencils down’ for the process has occurred, and it is time to make line an anonymous digital element (CAD or BIM), the inquiry changes trajectory. It is then that the wonder of nuance and subtlety begin to emerge.

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